To-do/Don't-do list. for now.

be focused.
take care of the cold.
learn properly.
sleep well.
take care!

i hate the feeling that...

sometimes,
people aren't your friends when they choose not to help or cant help you.
friends are not tools,
and certainly not just convenience.

officially screwed.

this time,
its no joke.

such a baby

i feel so much like one,
the stupid need for security,
crying out loud every other minute.
the frail attempt at trying to be strong,
yet falling every other minute.
the yearning for care, concern and love,
like one whos long been never.

grow up baby!
being an adult sucks.
and everyone knows.
but actually not everyone agrees.

learning

if being糊涂is the road to happiness,
i shall be.

i will control my mental problem, and not to mention be less demanding, and add less stress on you.
i know life is unfair, so ill just suck it up and move on.

MOVE ON!

sometimes i wished

i'd not be back.
i dont know what i lost, and dont know what really changed here.
my parents are the same old them, unforgiving, ununderstandable,
an extra loss of freedom, still the same ease of not talking at home,
just me rotting in front of the computer doing nothing yet they want me to be at home.
and i have 5 more modules, 49 more tutorials, and really, i dont know what else.
the friends and company and K are great, meeting up with everyone is damn cool,
but the sorting out of my old life isnt.

on the side note, i am getting too fat, too poor, and too clingy,
i should start finding $$ soon, and also start the regime, i got a bloody challenge to hit.
maybe its time to get the better of myself. YES!