To-do/Don't-do list. for now.

Learn LaTeX.
Learn HTML/CSS.
Learn Latin. (right...) [progress 1% : history and IPA]
Learn Greek (alphabet). 50%
Learn Cantonese. [progress 10% : talking with m'sian friends!]
Learn stocks.
Learn to absorb information.

Do Designs(I. BSS) By 19 Oct DONE!
Do Designs(II. animation with transparency)
Do Designs(III. Fac Tee)
Do Designs(IV. ambigrams)
Do Designs(V. per week feelings)
Do get thinner.
Do go run.
Get some superdry items :D
Remember souveniors?
Mug harder, you'll be a better student when you get back to NUS.
Download somemore series. They don't care about it here!
Call home, at least once a week.

Don't buy any more bus trip tickets.
Don't eat any more fast food. FAIL x 2
Don't shop too much already. FAIL x 1
Don't eat too much, I know its cold.
Don't act smart and wear so little when its cold, some day you'll lose a ear.
Stop buying shoes.
Stop fbing.
STOP GROCERYING, you don't open mamak shop! FAIL x 1

Be more cautious.
Be less stranger-shy.
Be more understanding.
Be more focused.
Be more attentive.
Be more awake.
Be more prioritizing.
Be more able.
Be... better.

解铃还须系铃人

原来系铃人是我。

now i really finally understand.
the thinking takes so damn long.
i guess its just the things that shake me.
i AM shaken.
bit by bit.
and yah, i think i got ADD.
i think.
time to do some origami?
or draw.
i need to get the tempo back.
and i probably need to do meditation.

Sth bad

is happening?
i hope not.
now the bleeding is on both sides.
isit the change in weather?
hmmm,
and the crazy stomachaches...
i wonder what is going on.

Ode to oneself

next week will be better.
ill play less games.
i will try to settle down.
read more.
learn more.
get ready for what might be coming in a months time.
the thought of exams again is fearful,
and the idea of closed book doesnt really entice me.
when i think about where to start,
i get lost in the midst of thinking,
cause its really a lot to catch up.
fight cause i want to fight.
lets... get ready for the final battle.
YWWWAAAAHHHHHHH!!!

i'll learn

i got my problems.
i have my flaws.
and sometimes...
i can't help but feel a little lost.

i have issues i can't resolve;
and they don't simply just dissolve.

i need lots of support,
i need lots of care,
like a baby,
out of his armchair.

i am currently,
down and out,
my mind's just been...
fluttering about.

sitting here in front of the com,
i wonder when i'll learn more than just some.

i hope i'll be my best,
when all these are put to the test.

it shall soon be time for me to get home,
and finally to stop this unsettling heart from its roam.

never ever

let your desires get better of you.
[=

maybe

maybe its my negative thoughts,
maybe im not suitable for this,
maybe [it has always been] my thinking too much.
maybe it would be better if i ignored them.
maybe it is good for me to concentrate on my work.
maybe it is the learning i have to do here.
maybe im still working on it,
maybe i will be better when i get back.
maybe...
maybe...
maybe... its the lack of contact with the world.

it makes me feel like i am not part of anything anywhere.
yawns.
all of a sudden i want to do math.

thoughts of Barcelona

Gaudi opened up my world.
Picasso lifted my spirits.
The world will still carry on turning with or without me.
Do more! with your life.
Try to be more proactive.
Even if it means to hit the wall more.
I will not miss paella.
Just because i cant really stand the rice.
And eh... pinoxo bar is okaayyy...
its a place for people who can understand spanish.
i probably became one of the few [eatened] guys.
LOL.
i walked and walked and walked.
if 10km was 1 blister.
i would probably have 3, in 6 days.
considered okay i guess,
i mean,
Barcelona is such a fine walking city,
ignoring the smoke from cigar/rettes, cars, bikes, and such.
back to Bath.
and out to Oslo in a day's time.
its -1 to 2 degrees there.
and why cant i just fall asleep properly here?
i think its the pillow.
lemme invest some time to check out pillows when i get back home.
can give me a better night sleep :/

La Roca Village

was a disappointment.
I was a disappointment.
I missed the bus timing,
I somehow remembered wrongly.
Dammit.
But HE was cool,
cheap!
and design wasn't that bad,
still okay bah.
not sure if there is still space in my bag.
hmmmmmmmm...
2 days more.
Boy oh boy,
my legs are breaking.
and i was thinking...

my back is breaking too.