hai. bai.

did the year have to end on such a note?

and priorities... priorities... priorities.

i hate asthma, as much as i hate fever.

asthma would probably be the thing that causes me to die.

this year somehow seems different, not looking forward, nothing to look forward, very hazy future; i ponder, and then contemplate, before i put down my brain and start to fallout again.

happy 2011 people!

on a sidenote, i suppose i was forced to be forgetful, maybe this is how my Alzheimer would develop?

waaa

its almost less than 1 mth left to terry fox. ok. i think i need to get myself prepped up soon... 10km, how much will i run? i will do it. I WILL DO IT. when i recover from asthma bah :S SIAN!

and anw i passed. and well... am going to... be extra hardworking next sem!

well oh well

this is bad, too much sedentarity from life is bad. i would certainly need to tweak this damn life of mine again into a proper fitness kind; where i would need a lot of physical work and what not to get back into the clothes that i used to be able to fit nicely. growls. damn! discipline, effort, and control is the key. most of the time it IS the key to anything, especially things like fitness. oh man. here goes the next year at least.

how to garner

enough discipline for the holidays? holidays are a problem in general, this extra tag to the days you are living causes you to have an illusion that you can slack off and what not, because " OH YOU HAVE BEEN WORKING YOUR ASS OFF DURING" the nonholidays period. now is that true? how do you quantise " how much of effort did i put in? " i really wonder, and currently facing a problem in discipline and control in my daily routine. I NEED MORE DISCIPLINE! do they sell it in the stores? i wonder, and enough conviction to last me till i pass ippt. no i do not want rt. not me. not now. not never.

old alr la

games? past them. maybe its inherited from my dad. i think i am ready to work for something bigger, like a house or whatever shit @_@. feels so... useless in front of the computer doing all the retarded game replies. when i get out of NUS i would no longer have the time (excuse) to go continue with them... lols. what about the money spent there? easily could be saved to buy a car, a house, or a whatever. are you ready? are you finally ready to... be an adult and take control of your life?

i foresee

myself dying early, to mutations and what not cancer freak shit.

with such a stressful lifestyle, it certainly can be deadly.

ahhh, what a way to begin the holidays!