后花园的静思阁

happiness

2012-01-29T22:24:00.002+08:00

will occur when both parties wanna be happy about it. it will never take place when only one party does their part. a clap is... 2 hands.

oh wells

2012-01-29T22:20:00.001+08:00

就事论事。似乎又是我的错。

thoughts on thoughts

2012-01-26T00:23:00.002+08:00

some weeks you greet, some weeks you don't. it is fairly obvious how things work, and it is rather agreeable to what was mentioned in the books and posts etc. it is as simple as that. thoughts come one week, then go away the next. maybe maybe. all i cant get is too hopeful. thats all.

新年

2012-01-23T18:58:00.001+08:00

没差？就如此。还是赶工吧。

do you know?

2012-01-23T18:57:00.003+08:00

how much i wish if everyday were your birthday

2012 年

2012-01-23T00:46:00.002+08:00

重点似乎是照顾身子。

do you know?

2012-01-18T21:41:00.001+08:00

repaying anything with anger is just plain backfire. i am so sad. so so sad. that that is all i get, whenever it happens.

hai, timetable already sucked, and the day was bad, real bad, yet... oh wells.

rethinking teaching

2012-01-15T23:40:00.001+08:00

thanks for spending that quality time talking eugene.

some thoughts,

teaching is about 3 Es
and some FIEs.

we cant run away from them, and in order to improve one has to learn how to scrap our old selves away. to be able to relearn one must unlearn, and that is very impt.

i cant claim to know something i knew, and i certainly cant say i still know something even though i did not learn all of it in the past. i need to put myself down to the very beginning in order to learn all the way this time.

i dont know how to teach, i dont know how to do many other things; i need to be humble, and i need to improve. this takes time, and i am willing to spend the time.

think twice, think wise.

its time to rethink the year 2012, m8.

insecurity

2012-01-13T23:33:00.002+08:00

strikes whenever this happens, and trust me, i do not like that feeling at all.

空虛感

2012-01-05T00:34:00.001+08:00

感覺很扎實，做了一整天。大掃除。我需要的。exercise.怎麽說呢，在不打掃，一定很慘。是時候了。好開懷，但是，儅老師這份差事，似乎會把你從我身邊拉走，就這麽不留痕跡的。只能這樣了吧。

school is going to start

2012-01-04T10:13:00.001+08:00

today is 4th, and i have 4 days free before anything happens. i will grab this time to start on my ideas of what to do, as well as develop some of the thoughts that have been moving about in my head. important thing is, to be serious about it already. thanks ! 2012 must start proper. sleep early, wake early, and wait for end of the year! HAHAH

thinking thinking

2012-01-03T11:12:00.002+08:00

there used to be many donation drives, those that you can donate your items, but nowadays, people rather give to garang gunis and... you know... people are cheapskate, esp many locals, so well... companies would not go through the effffffort of planning a donation drive and then helping people to throw useless rubbish away. not cost effective i tell you. tts why my useful items are stuck with me. i throw them away? yea i did, but i left it in a conspicuous place so if the cleaner finds sth useful there, may the item stay safe with its new owner.

你知道嗎？

2012-01-02T00:23:00.002+08:00

養尊處優，要不得啊。

歲末

2011-12-27T23:02:00.001+08:00

feeling independent is good isnt it?

if the power of love isnt big enough to cause any change, it either isnt love or it isnt as magical as i thot.

this hot and cold bouts keep on coming dont it? i wonder when it will ever stop. written in books, foretold by astrologers; somethings, no matter how unwilling to sccept or face, has to turn out to be true? srsly?

well well, i can only wish. things wont deja vu. im still too immature for all this.

夢

2011-12-25T23:24:00.001+08:00

i have a dream, some how. i dont have a target, i dont have a goal, that is MY big problem. it... is plainly because i have issues with goal setting. i need to start learning, of some sort.

i really have to learn it, ill write it down. soon enough, like now.

first goal next year, hopefully i get to a certain amt, i want to save up, as well as get to half the amount of getting a car.

goals goals goals

明天 wicked

2011-12-24T00:54:00.001+08:00

hallo world, returned home, tired, but ready to make a difference to my body. i hope i can keep up with the amount of workload on my legs. i pray pray. lol

wonderful Malacca, wonderful people, life is... good.

從日本回來了。。。

2011-12-20T16:21:00.001+08:00

我開始做事了。。。
我。。。會堅持下去。
我一定要。

唉。

2011-12-18T21:24:00.001+08:00

我們都不知道以後吧？以自己最舒服的方式活下去，或許會比活得富有與有名利開心吧？幸福怎麼算？

該放開的。。。

2011-12-17T22:06:00.001+08:00

總該放開。在這兩個禮拜里，我又放棄了甚麼？很明顯的，我少了遊戲的時間，我其實。。。能沒有遊戲。但也知道，那只是因為有東西或有event吧。。。我都放得掉的。是該長大了嗎？我總覺得我永遠長不大，或許這才是我最慘的地方吧，永遠都沒法順心！媽的！

要完了。。。

2011-12-16T22:14:00.001+08:00

旅行就快到個段落。。。有點傷感與不知所措。but... its good, shall get ready for reality soon enough!

初次日本游

2011-12-11T07:50:00.001+08:00

its interesting how this place is like, and the people are very societal. i wonder if they are all actually aliens as a matter of fact. i really think tt no other place has such strong hive mind. what if they are already amongst us?

oh what the hell.

its a good place to shop, walk about, tonnes of things to see, would be 20 times more enjoyable if i knew what they were saying. the language barrier for me is subtly painful srsly. growls! why you no learn japanese properly! RAWRRRR! ok harajukuXakihabara time!

音樂。。。

2011-12-05T00:43:00.001+08:00

讓人想象。

我的想象，不需音樂。。。就已超過了。OVER，太OVER了。。。
然而，因爲音樂，我的想象似乎又回來了。。。不該回來的，回來了。
看看。。。日本會對我有什麽影響吧。。。

countdown... 31小時。

saturday

2011-12-04T00:39:00.001+08:00

spent doing misc... veri veri... misc kinda life. du du du du du du

見。。。

2011-12-03T01:45:00.001+08:00

old classmates. most of them haven't changed. some have progressed in life, no more gaming, no more childish stuff. gaming? for kids? really? still?

oh wells... idk, i dont care either. ah, great, good nights!

walked and walked

2011-12-01T19:22:00.001+08:00

as i travelled by foot from chinatown to clarke quay to city hall to suntec and then back to city hall to take the mrt back.

first time i see so much yen and so much money in my hands, target, to make it mine, and to make it reality.

will work for it, will slog it out, will... make it true.

boring day

2011-11-30T15:28:00.001+08:00

im sick of staying home. gaming isnt... wad i really wanna do omfg. i wanna draw. i wanna... paint. i shud get a studio. damn.

想太多

2011-11-30T01:02:00.001+08:00

是我的天性。想反面也是不得已。

難熟也是我長久以來的困擾，所以跟人與人之間那互動。。。我還真是不行。總是有隔閡，有距離，有說不出的。。。怪。

我。。。awkward嗎？
我。。。weird嗎？

以上全是吧。

我管嗎？我不能，我沒法。我。。。不去思考。

I can't make out the fatigue i have here, is it from the chalet? or is it from my mind's toying with me. i can't stand this madness. thinking and thinking and thinking... i wonder if some friends are worth taking it to another level. its more like a suitability question compared to a worthiness kind of question. hmms.

oh duhs. i believe in the bigger cause, the bigger picture. i have 4 steps in front of you. if i weren't that lazy, i wud be there. and there wouldn't exist this question.

i just wish for myself to be... more 爭氣。

加油吧，混蛋！

做作。

2011-11-29T12:03:00.001+08:00

坐坐，做作，左座。
坐做，嘬嘬。。。

at chalet

2011-11-28T15:10:00.001+08:00

abit tiring ah, lack of sleep, and too much fun. and now thats shes gone to 韓國:( im gg to b so saaaaaad

life

2011-11-27T09:53:00.001+08:00

what is it about? gaming is fun, but... idk... cant put a word to it.

me? work? study? read? idk, im... lost. time is gone just like that.

just like that...

and chalet... i... wonder. haha.

其實我不管

2011-11-27T00:42:00.001+08:00

heh, well... as long as i am happy. yay! wooooo. skyrim. i AM excited!

but im tired, to that extend... i drool, in many ways.

on a sidenote, SMMT was child's play. Hmph.

now i can get back to planning for the trip.

some details, some... details. and... erm, dear's gg away soon, oh wells.

the walking dead

2011-11-24T22:36:00.001+08:00

is a really gory movie.

the idea,
the people,
the story,
the whole package,

wrecks my mind,
my mind my mind my mind. : /

portal gives

2011-11-24T19:59:00.001+08:00

me an exceptional sense of satisfaction +... a lot of headache. ouch!

on a sidenote... its going to be... JAPAN soon.

some how...

2011-11-23T07:33:00.001+08:00

i am awake? at this time? i freaked out, i... am tired, and i need more rest. its ok. i got tuition later. at most i can sleep in the afternoon. oh wells. man do i wanna watch fringe.

FRINGE! grahhhhh!!!

army

2011-11-22T21:54:00.001+08:00

end up with a fated incident! never do IPT and did some bodyage thing!

yay my body age is lower than my age. weeeeeeee

sadly, i seemingly have HBP :< siaaan.

oh wells. lets move on to 2mr!

badminton was fun

2011-11-21T23:04:00.001+08:00

that was the longest and most strenuous activity i have done since idk when. hahahhaha. what to do? now the body reacts and you'll realise the effects. oh my. let me rest well ba. gdnites! omfg feels like broken bones and shattered body. OPPPPSS

siannzzz

2011-11-21T00:08:00.001+08:00

me and my big mouth, now dad and whoever... thats me, have to waste time to find the elusive rackets -___-. argh!

慚愧啊。。。慚愧。

it was nice

2011-11-19T23:58:00.001+08:00

how 九把刀 shared his story. it was touching, and yet not too revealing about his own life. i am inspired, and really feel like doing something positive. but when? i wonder. ill start tonite. less comp, more comics. lols. gdnites!

skipping army

2011-11-19T16:14:00.001+08:00

and going for giddens + comics is a +.

yay! :D

1.7k

2011-11-18T22:00:00.001+08:00

i just hit that post mark. lol.

on a sidenote: i shall bochup. zz. didnt know will liddat.

我明白了。

and everytime i make my own conclusion, and fail to fairly conclude but nvm, i shall do it anyway. zz.

experience vs imagination

2011-11-18T19:55:00.001+08:00

how are they related? one cant live without the other? both must exist simultaneously? imagination is a kind of experience?

when is imagination not a kind of experience? what about fantasies? are they experiences? what about experiences? are they but imaginations we are having now?

i dont think we can yet justify. we stop thinking beyond that. we cannot resolve it. we dont understand our brains enough. is all this world just an interpretation? i cant say yes, nor say no. what about you?

on a sidenote... i have an idea. an impulse. and i am going to do it now. :D

FAT

2011-11-17T22:27:00.001+08:00

ill need to watch myself. already. even if its so little. yawns. sucks to get fat as easy as from drinking water... -_-

on a sidenote... i... i... needa change mode.

急就章

2011-11-17T00:30:00.001+08:00

友誼。。。能耐多久？
十年友誼呢？
什麽能解釋？
友誼的長短？
i have no idea, is it practicality?
is it people?
some people?
somebody?
someone who cant stand loneliness?
everyone is an island?
is it?
everyone isnt?
idk,
ikr.
its... a mystery after all.

jealousy

2011-11-16T20:16:00.001+08:00

is poisonous but hey hehe wadever man! i need to 自顧！

朋友是什麽？

2011-11-15T22:32:00.001+08:00

can do anything together. but oh wells. i can always bring my laptop along. HAHAHAHAHAHA

so itchy T_T

2011-11-14T20:32:00.001+08:00

i certainly hope its not chix pox T_T

我應該出門的吧。

2011-11-13T19:56:00.001+08:00

then none of this shit would have happened. zz

斯托普

2011-11-13T18:33:00.001+08:00

。

有些人

2011-11-13T18:32:00.001+08:00

喜歡踐踏他人，
用他們喜歡的。。。
脾氣。

throw me

2011-11-13T18:06:00.001+08:00

some ice and cool.

though its a relatively cooling day.

no work to do, just to prep for tuesday's work,

and then...

comes a mood bomb.

這一切

2011-11-13T12:00:00.001+08:00

在網絡裏的。。。都太不真實了。

i need something real, i need someone real.

i need to be that someone.

removing online presence

2011-11-13T11:12:00.001+08:00

im trying hard

人情世故

2011-11-11T19:19:00.001+08:00

我不懂。

on a sidenote...

我開始雷神ing了。

will upload if successful

being a thinker

2011-11-11T09:19:00.001+08:00

means that thinking is part of one's life. thinking nation is a far fetched idea preconceived by people who are possibly not thinkers. thinkers will know that to create a thinking nation the country needs to be really... really... advanced and not to mention mentally matured. possibly altruistic in nature, but almost non of which can be seen in the politics of singapore. importing foreign talents are justified via retarded reasons that locals dont even identify with. oh F.

多管閒事

2011-11-11T08:16:00.001+08:00

絕非我所好。

but not caring at all isnt either. i seem to phase in and phase out as and when i like, and the frequency is rather... awkward.

shrugs. bo chup seems to be one of theb est ways out. bo chup!

life

2011-11-10T09:58:00.003+08:00

has seen the diagram where three things are balanced in life: studies, social, and sleep.

with sleep and studies you become socially inapt,

with sleep and social you cant study,

and with study and social you die early.

now my issue comes when i have social, games, studies, and sleep.

i do social, games, and studies, i superbly lack sleep.

and with my track record of gaming in the past, i suck at socializing, i rarely have things to say; i dont know why, i dont know how, and i guess i... erm... oh wells. lemme get back to my games. lol.

短短的兩三個月。。。改變人生觀的。。。令人難忘的。。。

2011-11-10T09:38:00.002+08:00

那些年。。。

了解

2011-11-10T09:00:00.002+08:00

是個很深奧的詞彙。

cause i dont. though i thought i knew.

i dont understand you, i dont understand myself, i... dont think i can handle this anymore.

i feel... overboardly tired.

life

2011-11-10T00:04:00.001+08:00

is but a short walk of fun laughter peace and joy.

not saying the sad part is because i dont remember them anyway.

life is way too short to get caught up with all those but some people just choose to dwell there.

i really should start doing what i like to do, and get back to my hobbies, my real hobbies.

i dont want to have to reply to people when they ask what do you do in your free time?

... i am at the computer...

"what do you do there?"

...

...
...
...

erm...

stuff... i guess?

我或許太幼稚。

2011-11-09T22:10:00.001+08:00

你的脾氣，我不敢得罪。

sometimes i just wonder. maybe its just me and my experience with life. i wonder.

說得好。

2011-11-09T10:53:00.001+08:00

do you like someone?
do you love someone?
how do you know?
how would you know?
do you love someone you think you know?
do you love the someone whom is just a figment of your imagination?
is reality any different from what you perceive,
is the person standing here actually here?

think about it,
maybe you will realise...
you'r mindfxxked.

what do you think?

2011-11-09T00:19:00.002+08:00

i think you are right. why am i... such a non-social animal? why? :/

i realised... if i get back to like gaming a huge lot... i actually dont feel like going out.

and i envy huizhen for having so many life skills! ive been wondering, is it a nonsingaporean thing? to learn skills? and like it? hmmmm, i certainly want to have more skills. haha, but wait, at what expense? to stay away from the computer? : / sian.

i guess i am really a computer addict. ):

越來越不懂

2011-11-08T16:33:00.001+08:00

人生為何？並不是存在主義，而是比較接近原因何在？那可說是尋找意義的旅程。。。怎麼說呢，小時候，不假思索地享受，現在，卻拼了老命似的做些所謂有意義的事。對嗎？人生本是徒勞無功，我們這麼難瞭解嗎？

其實，小時候的我，應該比現在的我懂事吧。

成長，成熟，變老，與懂不懂事沒有關聯吧。。。

有些人

2011-11-07T22:57:00.001+08:00

有些人忙，爲了生活，
有些人忙，爲了麻醉，
有些人忙，不知爲何，傻傻的。

而有些人，
忙只因不想有機會去想，
不想去幻想，不想去妄想，
忙只爲了讓自己沒機會。。。
沒機會去想想痛楚。

那些年，我們一起追過的女孩。

2011-11-07T22:47:00.002+08:00

pride?
ego?
face?

i guess all of the above.
pent up feelings.
i need to release.
the show is good, and i feel the need to cry.
:/ damn.
not good. not good!

plot abstracted from giddens life story, at least some part of it. i like it. the 感動 part especially.

特感動。

what lesson planning is about

2011-11-04T18:22:00.002+08:00

what the marker wants to see. it isn't what i have in mind, a rough guide to not mess up, a rough script to make sure you remember what to say. a lesson plan is much more. it is... an 'EXACT' description of what you are going to do, it is an 'EXACT' flow of your thought throughout the lesson. the issue is here. to be able to do that you must carry out the lesson not just once, twice, but more than 3 times inside your head. now i know. now i really need to sit down and think. THINK!

do you understand?

2011-11-03T15:08:00.003+08:00

i dont think so. u ass bitch. now i know why you have a detestable aura. BITCH!!!

yawns. i actually need to do research to make a safari. @_@

spendthrift 2

2011-11-01T09:12:00.001+08:00

impulsive spending. is bad.
3 digit spending. bad.
i need to see $$ as sth... bigger.

i... am

2011-10-31T22:06:00.002+08:00

a spendthrift. slowly, and then its gone. all the money. it will be gone. and someone was unwilling to help. not friendly at all. not at all.

this played in my playlist

2011-10-30T14:33:00.004+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyYnmDmyiWo&feature=related

时过境迁

2011-10-30T12:23:00.004+08:00

但为何我还是一样期盼着电话上的留言闪烁。
也许不过是就我一个多情种吧，学乖点吧。

what do you learn?

2011-10-30T00:22:00.001+08:00

不经一事，不长一智。

tired mind

2011-10-29T13:06:00.006+08:00

the alcohol almost killed my brain during tuition. phew!

now that i have some time, i have no mood to game. damn!

ok lets get rid of the last assignment. oh wells.

酒后吐真言。。。

2011-10-29T00:18:00.002+08:00

true true...

maybe it was the true free spirit speaking,

maybe it was sanity.

i knew what i was saying,

i understood every word's consequence,

do you?

i wonder.

its ptless for me to nag at you anw

2011-10-27T23:53:00.001+08:00

yawns, time to sleep!

又不见得。。。

2011-10-27T18:47:00.002+08:00

你会约我。

WASTED

2011-10-26T23:36:00.001+08:00

50 dollars for nothing FK!!!

WHY SO DUMB!!! FK!!! ZZZ I THOT IT WAS NOVEMBER> BLODY NOVEMBER!!! ARGHH!!!!

fewl

2011-10-26T19:52:00.002+08:00

你唱歌。。。就是。。。没有fewl.

you know?

2011-10-26T18:28:00.003+08:00

this long break is quite a good break, i believe so. my mindset has changed, shifted, and i have experienced much to know this is not what i want. what do i want? something simple, somebody simple.

a question to ask, what do YOU want? someone who is ok with beating around the bush for centuries? contrary to what im looking for i say. i really feel screwed up now. i dont think you know. at all.

i am losing hope.

2011-10-26T18:00:00.003+08:00

somehow i dont see no point in continuing. things seem to be going on as an obligation which is very bad.
if work is so fucking important then maybe you can just go do your work. i don't know how and don't know why things turn out like that once and again. maybe the free spirit in me is working up again, maybe it is too obvious you dont give a fuck.

i think i hurt my stomach

2011-10-26T08:40:00.000+08:00

it never hurt that bad for a long long time already. i wonder what i did to it :/
its sick how much damage can be done to the internals. i even had issues running. it felt like my body was breaking apart :/

i need to sleep more...

been playing and sleeping

2011-10-21T10:41:00.003+08:00

i havent been doing much work,
i havent been actually studying...
playing games and sleeping...
still feeling sleepy...
sleeping...
and sleeping...
i want to sleep.

lol

2011-10-18T23:46:00.001+08:00

i guess aries does like to talk to pisces. 賤貨！

mummum ion

2011-10-18T23:45:00.001+08:00

huhu udon! shiok!

life is a tiring walk

2011-10-18T00:06:00.003+08:00

i... am quite sick of the daily things i have to go through... though i do not wish to end it...

i dont feel no purpose, and obviously, the only fun ptless thing to do is to play games...

so i play games? not constructive at all... then what do i do?

enlighten me... what do i do?

and with this...

2011-10-15T11:34:00.003+08:00

i proclaim myself to have increased in level of usefulness. i was tempted by my own desires -_-zzz to spend like 3 times within 1 minute. it was deadly and (i know this is weird), but i stopped myself from getting what i wanted to splurge on. -_-zzz. phew, sure feels good knowing i still have control over myself. i believe some day i will go crazy. oh wells.

on a sidenote, now i have 2 assignments left, and... im having fun, everyday :D

almost

2011-10-14T00:53:00.001+08:00

got the x100. i want a new camera. im not exactly a tech geek, im a geek, really. the thing is i need a camera that wouldn't take million of years to prepare to shoot 1 single shot. im a shutterbug. a dslr does not allow me to shutter bug. too many things to care about, too many nonsense! but its priced at 1.4k. how? on a sidenote, 2 more assignmts left. WHEW!!

2011-10-12T10:48:00.002+08:00

sleep early... and run early. tired. but rejuvenating!

yes i will

2011-10-11T09:07:00.004+08:00

not be a slave to my desires. discipline and holding on to myself should/could potentially save my ass. go!

you attitude

2011-10-10T11:04:00.001+08:00

i need to stop gambling
yes, i do.

what i see

2011-10-07T22:57:00.005+08:00

and how it relates to the world. i saw it as us. you saw it as you. and your attitude just gets worse. watch your words. and stop assuming. I'm sick of this. really sick. if this sustains, then we're strangers.

you fail to explain yourself. and get away with it. i wonder why. maybe its me who can't relate, but i don't think so. can't help it if you don't wish to relate.

愛

2011-10-07T14:03:00.001+08:00

把所有的愛都流給孩子吧。我，就算了吧。

你知道吗？

2011-10-05T19:19:00.002+08:00

我很累，真的很累。好希望。。。十一月快点来。快来啊。不然我怎么办？

累了，泪了。

2011-10-05T00:33:00.000+08:00

是该流泪了，可以流泪的。觉得好累。流累，流泪。工作不停地堆，情绪不停的灰，能力也不停地退。绑牙的铁丝，好噢麻嘎的他妈的痛。不是剧痛，只是在那隐隐作痛。
天啊，我把自己怎么了？

beginning of shorts

2011-10-01T16:52:00.005+08:00

live life and be gutsy,
shut up and suffer in silence if that's what you wish.
otherwise, enjoy the scenery.

不需依赖的人们。。。

2011-10-01T00:28:00.000+08:00

就别说爱嘛。。。

渴望爱的 n 无需依赖的 = 活受罪；
无需依赖的 n 渴望爱的 = 皮痒；
渴望爱的 n 渴望爱的 = 火辣辣；
无需依赖的 n 无需依赖的 = 没差别。

做出选择吧。

well... looking back

2011-09-30T23:32:00.001+08:00

will you one day, look back, smile and think to yourself if you have wasted time on stuff you shouldn't have? or money you shouldn't have spent? or sth along that line?

or would you be the one who draws from these experiences and learn from them? to gain some insight on how life would be if none of those happened? or what would have happened if you actually didn't spend? did you think about it?

i thought long and hard about how it will be, i might be rich. might be. i might be smarter, i might be, i might be less 辜负ing, i sure will be. i have grown to not be bothered by stuff, not to get angry, not to be sad about how i give up things, not to be overly affected. i am... un-ariesing.

then i ask myself, what about people whom i care about but became more "cant be bothered"? all of a sudden the 4 seater car where i was always backseated became a 2-seater and i got squashed off the car and forced to stand by the road to watch. you ask... wah, like that oso can? well... analogies aren't supposed to be logical. they aren't. and my analogy IS apt. oh wells. sometimes people don't reflect on their own actions, and say "its an obligation", some people claim they are beyond themselves and hence have no chance to introspect. well... i'm trying very hard to buy those arguments, at the same time trying very hard to not think about these issues. i have a 14 page lesson plan to rush out with game design and tonnes of other stuff to do i can't give a shit alr (like srsly). at least i don't take up responsibilities at the expense of sacrificing my own time and life. work does not define life. if you like it that way, you should be working as an insurance/financial planner and work your life off.

sacrificing your loved ones for "work" is not a valid excuses. once again i certainly hope people do see that point. some relations can't be fixed, some can't be bought once its expired. some... just go away. those of you who've lost someone or something before and know how much it hurts, you will understand where i came from. those of you who haven't, i'm pretty sure you do not want to experience it first hand, bitter, bitter experience.

shrugs

2011-09-30T18:29:00.001+08:00

am damn sian.

2011-09-30T08:20:00.003+08:00

愈强则强，愈弱则弱，这真是要不得；
近朱者赤，近墨者黑，这则人人抢着。
在生活里，遇见的人与事。。。
到底怎么衡量，怎么取舍？

this throbbing headache

2011-09-30T08:09:00.001+08:00

has prompted me to set down some ground rules...

sleep earlier than 12.
drink more water.
use less computer.
rest more.
sleep more.
eat less.
use your eyes less.
think less.

the less qigek you are, the longer you live...
but live for what? i don't know for what either.