Dear friend, #1

Dear friend,

I changed the way this blog works because I was deeply affected by "The Perks of Being a Wallflower", the concepts in the show were really intriguing, and while the show was deemed to be a "teen drama" (damn im old), I am still really smashed in the face while watching it.

I should hope to keep the notes to you as a daily thing but sometimes you know, there's nothing to say and I really don't want to write about how almost knocked into a wall looking at a mural, ya know whadyam sayyin?

I won't have any spoilers here so I wouldn't talk about the movie details, but hey I just wanna say it kinda lifted my spirits way beyond the skies. Its been sometime since I last felt this way, I don't know when was the last, was it Juno? I have been watching movies since I was 14? 15? or was it 16? I don't remember, as far as I could remember, it was an effection from Mr Sunny (I do not know how his name is spelt). He was my tuition teacher back when I was having English tuition. I hated english tuition. compre, compo, compre, compo and I was dozing off half the time. I probably got that habit in U back those days. He was an interesting fella, had tonnes of people he could talk to, and shared with us how being non-judgemental was the right thing to do. Bengs talk to him because they know they could communicate with him. How many people actually can?

He also shared with us how he doesnt teach on thursdays, and its movie marathon for him. From the noon show till night, it would be his movie day and amazingly, it sunk into me as well. I guess somethings better not be learnt up : /. it really costs a bomb to watch so many movies. really. I learnt most of the thinking stuff from movies, I learnt tonnes of things from everywhere, anywhere. I learnt from you, my friend, too. I learnt from them, and I learnt from the mentors too. Some of them teach negatively, I rant a lot about them, and its a fact but I wasn't like that before. But well no excuses, all these can and WILL be prevented. Knowing how to swear and swearing are two different things.

Keeping these bad emotions to myself could/would/should potentially help them too, but I really don't know. Would you be so kind as to tell me if I should do that? Remember the time when 出口成章 meant 出口成髒？hahaha, those were the days. We had lots of fun didn't we?

I shall share with you more on Life Rules next time, guess what, tomorrow its another warzone day, and well, I need to sleep more or else I will fall asleep later.

xoxo,

mo

Thanks to Perks of Being a Wallflower

There is change here. The style is the one used by the Charlie. and well i like Patrick much.

Sam is so hawt! and here's it:

randomness

while walking about in punggol, a thought sprung up. what is randomness?

we observe randomness. but are we able to repeat randomness using our own abilities?

we say scissors paper stone is random, no special way of winning, but there is. there is a science behind it.

now what EXACTLY IS randomness?

like hold a pen on its back and its nib on the table. release. you WOULD NOT KNOW where its going to fall towards.

now this IS randomness. and after much research...

ITS A WHOLE PART OF PHYSICS KNOWN AS FALLING PEN PHYSICS lol.

so frankly speaking. i believe randomness is quantum. what we have... what we do... is known to be pseudorandom. basically fake randomness.

so random. this post is so random. yet controlled in some sense.

we are all contradictions in some way.

see. random. but not that random.

last week in school

i have no idea if i can do it. i dont have the time. so... lol. PM me if you actually want sth.

here's a video of origami at the very least. hope its good enough :p

and erm... if there's disappointment... it... kinda gets better in time.

ill try my best, but hey like i said, if you r really interested... lol. happy holidays.

sometimes

what we need is to cut ourselves a little slack. i think i might have been too roughed up by myself these few days. never spent too much time outside under the sun, now i feel like

and this late night sleeping has caused me to srsly lose some memory of life.

but oh wells, i can only see good times coming, i feel like going 環游世界 on my own again. something is wrong with me. something is acting up. something... is...

i hope you r happy, srsly

i hoped you did well, but you may or may not have had done it.

at this juncture, it may be a big thing, as streaming is the key.

many reasons bring us to this place, maybe family, maybe friends, or even just ourselves. thing is... each time this comes by, a phase, a year, an hour, a minute... a second, our life points into two directions.

or more.

each small different step we take... we go somewhere.

be it good, or bad, i hope you embrace where you landed yourself. I hope you will love your new friends, I hope you will have a helluva time.

srsly, no matter what you get, it is really inconsequential to me, because... at the end of the day, I won't remember you by your score in EOY.

if you worry about your results you will remb what you end up with.

what you leave behind with the teacher is what you were in class, how you behaved, what you did, what you think you did that the teacher did not see, *tsk tsk*. your personality.

so no matter what, ill be happy for you.

the funeral

We were friends. Blaik, I thought I knew you.
Not after I found the stuff you hid in your study drawer.
Blood samples? All labelled with initials?
I tried not to think too much.
You always kept the study locked.
Why not yesterday?

I thought we were closest of friends. We spent our childhood together, had so much fun in the tree house, and no matter how much trouble we got into, we stuck through out. Even after I moved, we were still good. You became a doctor eventually, and I became a writer. We still met up often, I still don't know as much about you as you know about me. You always had your quiet moments, staring into space, as if there was something there.

Why did you leave me in your house alone yesterday?
You were away, and my curiosity got better of me.
Your diary, why was it left open?
Did you want me to find it?
Did you want me to read it?
Did you?

I did not want to find out.
I did not need to know what you really do.
Why now?
Why let me realize you were already broken when we first met?
Why now?
Are you trying to let me know you better?
Why now?
Do I really deserve this shock?
Why now?

I had no choice. I had to stop you.
I'm coming up only to hold you under.

You did not struggle.

And coming up only to show you wrong.

You were smiling, I didn't know why.

And to know you is hard; we wonder...

Why?

To know you all wrong; we warn.

Blaik. I'm sorry.

I'll be fine.

Don't worry, I'll be at your funeral.

Aran

today is origami day.

follow the instructions, and make an awesome cube that can transform into a... rose.

on a sidenote: heres how to make sushi, if you didn't already know. (dont take it too srsly k)

one of my first idols

低沉的中低音.诠释情歌的感觉.

paper 1.

i think this can describe my feelings. or sth liddat.

誰不想

maybe im too fast

marking day

marking day is 8 - 1. what is the significance? shrugs

i havent taken a single day of MC (not even when im sick.) and shouldnt i be rewarded with 2 free days as well if i no longer have anything to mark? nods. then i can go msia again and feel the feeling of freedom. some false sense of freedom is good too, the mind is easily deceived.

well, i hope i finish tomorrow, haven't decided whether to sports, wonder if the PE ppl have any equipment to spare. then thursday i can go skoo to rot and bring my lappie there to game (righttt.... ):

maybe i shouldn't mark so fast then. so thursday still got stuff to do. can chillax abit. woohoo.

on a sidenote: fringe supernatural dexter TBBT HIMYM all have new eps i havent watched. :D

i have never tried marking like this...

but it works in my favor. am loving it.

now i feel like an overworked robot, with a burning CPU.

brainfried. marking damn slowly now.

happiness or results more important?

happiness brings results?

results brings happiness?

i only blame time for making me enter the school midway.

heres sth i like alot. i feel like watching it again. : /

not around

is it true that people cherish stuff only when the stuff is lost or is no longer around?

kthxbai

im leaving on a jetplane, don't know when ill be back again...

make a comeback

a wise man ever said,

"if you can sit through hell and not falter, then nothing, absolutely nothing will stir your further."

that is the start of resilience. an important trait you would love to have. trust me, it will be the start of something good.

2 different videos. same song.

i apologize

for being inadequate.

inapt.

insufficient.

just. not. good. enough.

oh wait. inapt song. jeez.

thoughts

im pretty sure you can do better than this. much better. have some faith.

mark mock

i dunno... i rly donno. sobs.

my fault? *nods

not prepared? not the right time to have mock?

im more worried than disappointed. im... i cant describe.

if you are not good at it i have nothing to say.

your good results in previous semesters do not do you justice.

with your calibre, you know well that YOU CAN MAKE IT.

im not even talking about answering to your parents.

ANSWER TO YOURSELF. can you accept yourself being stuck at this level of mediocrity?

There is no "yes" as an answer. you can do it, then do it. why allow yourself to be like this?

no complaints. no excuses. pull up your socks, and get ready to fight. DO OR DIE. THERES NO TRY.

*of course don't die. tyvm.

credits to:http://www.bostern.com/blog/2009/10/24/inspired/

nao i noe why...

have been losing much sleep. not enough sleep time translate to bad things happening in life. is it an illness? hard to tell.

here are some possibilities:

and it does happen to our canine fren more than us...

haish. isit me? isit me getting narcolepsy? ):
whenever you get a certain heightened feeling, anger, nervousness, or sadness, you immediately fall to sleep.

narcolepsy. sad. cannot feel happy, sad, angry, or even just disturbed, cause either way you'll fall asleep before you know it.

how sad is it to not be able to witness and experience everything in life that you can do nao? can you relate? i doubt so ):

MY RULE OF THUMB: sleep enough (6 - 8 hours) before a major exam. nothing can go wrong.
1) if you remember it, you will remember it.
2) if you havent had enough time to remember it, wake up earlier to revise, not sleep later, the brain doesnt do good with burning midnight oil
3) if you don't remember it, then sleeping late wouldn't help. srsly.

kthxbai. remember. keep calm, and eat tao huey.

its exam seasons again

when i was in NUS, exam seasons always seem bleak. reason: i am always by the computer whereas everyone else is bz mugging. maybe... it isnt my fate to deal with education? is it? but i think its just me and my distractions. i need to find many things to do as my mind is often unoccupied, no matter how much i try to mug. do you feel the same?

why do i lack focus? maybe studying isnt my cup of tea, this isnt to discourage people from studying, but to encourage that you TAHAN through the system, and eventually find something you love to do. my fren did relatively ok for his studies, went to army, worked and saved up to study in la selle. nao he is a fellow in a school for directing. how awesome is that?

http://heshuming.wordpress.com/worksnational-day/

not everyone ends up where they want, but if you hang in there, and wait for delayed gratification, more often than not you will realise it was good to wait. it isnt just a joke if ppl over centuries say "good things come to those who wait".

THEY ARE ALL BACK!

TBBT

SUPERNATURAL

FRINGE

HIMYM

and so much more!!! @_@

random fact of the day:

you can't hold your nose and say "mmmmmmmm" for more than 7 seconds.

the leg feels limp. good luck 了。i wished i spent more time exercising and playing sports. i like em, but i spend too much time on the computer. pew pew pew.

some day... oh some day.