Dear friend, #7

Dear friend,

Have a great new year. It has been rough (ok not), it has been tough (ok you are stronger) and well, its all coming to an end. 2013 will come (SGT +8) in approximately half an hour's time, and guess what, I am still panicking as much as I was last year. Ok not really, LOL. The past weeks of holidays has been rather fun, although I really would prefer to spend more time being constructive... and well well well.

School is starting real soon. 2nd of January. LOL. Am I excited? Excited? You kidding me? I need to prepare stuff to teach already, even though it is known to be week 0, i.e. no need to teach yet. I will be teaching a few sec1 and a few sec2 class(es) and yea I hope I am better than I was this year.

No countdown this year, but all ready to prepare for bed, ah yes, prepare for bed. argh. old is catching up. I actually look forward to sleeping. Pig me. Pygmy. /_\

Dear friend once again please do take care of yourself, we need to be better version of ourselves in 2013, and lets get ready.

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #6

Dear friend,

Hi friend! I have been starting to re-pick up life as December arrived. As I spoke to my secondary school teacher, she told me it would be a challenge to adjust to the halting of momentum when holidays arrive, it is really up to me to decide wisely how my time should be spent. I kinda dislike the idea of work like mad, then rest like mad, why can't we just live slow, or maybe fast, but not too fast, so we can always catch our breathe daily? This way we can last long enough and we probably would not see so many zombies around in school yeah? Would you rather have a year of work and rest concurrently or approximately 3 months of rest non-stop and 9 months of deadly work non-stop?

It makes no sense right? Even with that 3 months of rest many people idle their time away, while some continue to work their ass off for the year to come, which makes less sense than no sense, go figure. Now if we can only re-look at how our years of evolution has come to be, we may be able to shed some light on these ridiculous traditions we call 'structure'. I agree structure is essential, but we must also see that breaking structure is essential too ya'know!

I have started to do some work, albeit slowly. Some work from next year, some lagging dragging work, mostly school work. I really have no more stuff I really really have to clear from my personal life you see. So nowadays at least I still get to game, like... 10 hours a day at least. Call me mad but hey gamer for life! 1337

Orcs Must Die 2 is what's constantly bugging my mind now, its still Tower Defence  but with a tinge of FPS, and with such dark humour  it is certainly my kind of game lol. Otherwise I would be folding origami, like what else seriously. I just need so much more structured procrastination to help me do more. Read the following:

How to procrastinate like a pro

Ig Nobel Award

Yes both are very relevant, and yes you have not heard wrong, its Ig Nobel award, an award given to people who come up with brilliant ideas that do not fall under the Nobel Prize category, such as... procrastination. Wonderful, right? People need to think more, think more out of the box, and think more for the benefit of the masses. Call that altruism or anything you like, but I prefer to know it as the goodness of mankind. No matter how much I have trust issues with my own species, I choose to hold on to my belief that we can be as good as we want to be, and as cliché as it sounds, with goodness comes evil. So the best of goodness we can be would consequently reflect that the worst of evil we can also be XD.

I certainly hope you have been good my friend, because otherwise Santa would be bringing you some pretty nice night mares to visit you! (oh wrong character, LOL)

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #5

Dear friend,

I haven't been doing good with my time. I am striving for something more constructive; I have been trying hard to declutter, I have been trying to "turn over a better leaf". I am not entirely 'chui' but what I really want is to be something better. Physically, I am trying to turn into something I always wanted to become, mentally, I am having a hard time controlling (I am not crazy), I just have excessive raw power giving me a lot of 天馬行空。

So as far as possible, when this week ends, I will no longer have much travelling and going out to do, i.e. physical social activities HAHA. I am not exactly entirely anti-social but I am in actual fact pretty much an introvert.

http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/how-to-deal-with-introverts

http://9gag.com/gag/2387816

http://mehallo.com/B/IntrovertThing2.png

http://www.salespodder.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/04/susan-cain-introvert-extrovert-400x696.jpg

And seriously speaking, I do value my space more than I value interaction. If I do not have a very fruitful interaction with you I rather keep quiet and observe. That way I pick up more than I do when I try to make small talk, hence the lack of small talk.

I perceive time differently, every second feels long to me.

I perceive people differently, almost every other stranger I see is... 不自動。woops.

I try my best to do my best in everything, simply because... I hate problems.

Frankly speaking, problems are essential in mathematics, I grew up hating them possibly. BECAUSE I HATE THEM, I solve them really fast. HAHAHAHA. yes. That happened. And eventually I started loving mathematics because I want to solve them as fast as I can. I learnt more about life and stuff along the way. It is difficult to impart that to students nowadays simply because... they do not think that math has anything to do with life. In actual fact, it has. Just that time does not allow us to explore so. Simply put, given 3 hours a week, the most I can teach you is how to ace your school exams. Something must be rethought, and we must all relearn. Problem solving will tide us through a major part of our lives, and I am having an easy life (relatively) because most of the problems that come to me 兵來將擋，水來土掩。Unlike some others who panic and spend much time on thinking about the solutions, mine come to me much easily. This makes it... much easier for me.

Whew, that is quite some ranting. Hope it didn't scare the ________ out of you. Life brings us much nonsense and sense along the way and what we really need to do is to overlook and focus on some. I still am trying to learn how to focus on what I really am going to do in the next 10 - 15 years so that I can make myself a pro at it. Slowly give stuff up so that I can think deeply instead of in the other way. I do not need to pick up more pastimes and interests already. LOL.

I hope you have been doing well, its 2 days to December, fast ain't it? Bonus is coming in, and I certainly hope that it will fund my trips :p Maybe I'll get to see you when I go there? I sure hope so.

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #4

Dear friend,

it has been quite a while! Really quite sometime since I last came back here. Almost a fortnight you see. Have you been fine in this madness November is bringing us? I was thinking about posting about my past but it really didn't seem useful. At least not to the extent I actually went about posting it.

Amidst the madness, there is still work to be done, and hey, I really am getting way too slack for my own good. I am not sure if it is due to the constant 2am nights I am having, or it is just fatigue from non - existent work. This burning sensation is kinda great, given that it numbs at times. not that it IS good or anything like that.

The main point of today, I actually bought something I was eyeing since 2 years ago. Well, this time round, with a little future cash, and more intense discipline, it went through my mind, and seriously, this and the coming month are really pure training for my mind. I really hope this financial roller coaster would stop appearing anyhow in the future urgh.

Pardon my nonsense my friend, for I would want to sleep early today. Tomorrow is no kidding frankly speaking. And I would actually like to do some work at school tomorrow. So... here's hoping a good december soon to come, and if I can, Ill be back!

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #3

Dear friend,

sorry for the absence... I was rather... off recently. been doing too much... physical activities i must say. I have been starting long distance training, running and then cycling. I really should get a bicycle I guess? So that I can ride to school next year...

I feel that it is rather therapeutic to go running long distance and cycling because it allows the brain to go on hibernation mode. The only problem that follows is that the body feels the fatigue I guess. These days have been rather eventless given that there's no school and all there is is invigilation and nothing else.

How have you been? Have you been really busy? Or are you like me... free? Are you free spirited? Do you get high at the smell of adventure? Do you like literature? The arts? Culture? Science? Math? Are you happy with your life now? Is the coming month good?

I can't wait to go for holidays, but I can't seem to find people to go Tioman. I just want to spend some time going over there to stay, laze around and snorkel. It is something I really miss. Can I find someone to go eventually? Pretty please?

It's time to already to make a move, I still have tonnes of work to complete haha, oh gosh. Take care, my friend, and see you soon, hopefully overseas (:

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #2

Dear friend,

Sorry I couldn't keep up with the daily post promise. hope all's well with you. life has been messy, with invigilations in and out, not every day, yet some days you have to return to school and many a times you are left thinking what is it I have tomorrow.

this mess has caused me quite a big problem. One. An Aries needs clear focus. And now there isn't. no student and no target and no nothing. there is this reason why people game during holidays, they feel lost. do I feel lost? YOU BET. But somehow there's still uberly many things to do that I am unable to focus on playing games, saddening ain't it? And simply because of this, I chose to leave these 煩事 at home and go for runs/walks/jogs whatever. I like the water. Mum and dad ever said before that my name was picked by some Name Meister and the amount of 木 in my name has caused me to love water a lot. I like the seas, I like rain, I like waterfalls, I love the sound of water, I love to drink water, I basically need water. I actually completed 16km, first ever in my life. I am proud of myself, aren't you my friend? After that one day the recuperation took longer than expected but the effects were great! I think stamina increased by quite a bit. I think I really should have put in more effort into fitness during army. Sorry to have disappointed you then : /

Coming back to the point, while all these are going on, life still rolls, the time still moves, water still flows and yes... the TO-DO list piles up. I just realised I have stuff I owe all the way from September, and yea I really shouldn't make it sound like it was that long ago. Its just about 2 mths. HAHA. and actually in about 2 months school's going to begin and I will really scare the shit out of myself if I end up teaching sec 4s. D: The bulls.

Ah wells, I can't talk longer dear friend, I need to complete the blue whale to bring to school tomorrow to show SH IP and I haven't even started! I assume it to be done by 1234am though. Life's all well dear friend, I hope it is the same for you too!

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #1

Dear friend,

I changed the way this blog works because I was deeply affected by "The Perks of Being a Wallflower", the concepts in the show were really intriguing, and while the show was deemed to be a "teen drama" (damn im old), I am still really smashed in the face while watching it.

I should hope to keep the notes to you as a daily thing but sometimes you know, there's nothing to say and I really don't want to write about how almost knocked into a wall looking at a mural, ya know whadyam sayyin?

I won't have any spoilers here so I wouldn't talk about the movie details, but hey I just wanna say it kinda lifted my spirits way beyond the skies. Its been sometime since I last felt this way, I don't know when was the last, was it Juno? I have been watching movies since I was 14? 15? or was it 16? I don't remember, as far as I could remember, it was an effection from Mr Sunny (I do not know how his name is spelt). He was my tuition teacher back when I was having English tuition. I hated english tuition. compre, compo, compre, compo and I was dozing off half the time. I probably got that habit in U back those days. He was an interesting fella, had tonnes of people he could talk to, and shared with us how being non-judgemental was the right thing to do. Bengs talk to him because they know they could communicate with him. How many people actually can?

He also shared with us how he doesnt teach on thursdays, and its movie marathon for him. From the noon show till night, it would be his movie day and amazingly, it sunk into me as well. I guess somethings better not be learnt up : /. it really costs a bomb to watch so many movies. really. I learnt most of the thinking stuff from movies, I learnt tonnes of things from everywhere, anywhere. I learnt from you, my friend, too. I learnt from them, and I learnt from the mentors too. Some of them teach negatively, I rant a lot about them, and its a fact but I wasn't like that before. But well no excuses, all these can and WILL be prevented. Knowing how to swear and swearing are two different things.

Keeping these bad emotions to myself could/would/should potentially help them too, but I really don't know. Would you be so kind as to tell me if I should do that? Remember the time when 出口成章 meant 出口成髒？hahaha, those were the days. We had lots of fun didn't we?

I shall share with you more on Life Rules next time, guess what, tomorrow its another warzone day, and well, I need to sleep more or else I will fall asleep later.

xoxo,

mo

Thanks to Perks of Being a Wallflower

There is change here. The style is the one used by the Charlie. and well i like Patrick much.

Sam is so hawt! and here's it:

randomness

while walking about in punggol, a thought sprung up. what is randomness?

we observe randomness. but are we able to repeat randomness using our own abilities?

we say scissors paper stone is random, no special way of winning, but there is. there is a science behind it.

now what EXACTLY IS randomness?

like hold a pen on its back and its nib on the table. release. you WOULD NOT KNOW where its going to fall towards.

now this IS randomness. and after much research...

ITS A WHOLE PART OF PHYSICS KNOWN AS FALLING PEN PHYSICS lol.

so frankly speaking. i believe randomness is quantum. what we have... what we do... is known to be pseudorandom. basically fake randomness.

so random. this post is so random. yet controlled in some sense.

we are all contradictions in some way.

see. random. but not that random.

last week in school

i have no idea if i can do it. i dont have the time. so... lol. PM me if you actually want sth.

here's a video of origami at the very least. hope its good enough :p

and erm... if there's disappointment... it... kinda gets better in time.

ill try my best, but hey like i said, if you r really interested... lol. happy holidays.

sometimes

what we need is to cut ourselves a little slack. i think i might have been too roughed up by myself these few days. never spent too much time outside under the sun, now i feel like

and this late night sleeping has caused me to srsly lose some memory of life.

but oh wells, i can only see good times coming, i feel like going 環游世界 on my own again. something is wrong with me. something is acting up. something... is...

i hope you r happy, srsly

i hoped you did well, but you may or may not have had done it.

at this juncture, it may be a big thing, as streaming is the key.

many reasons bring us to this place, maybe family, maybe friends, or even just ourselves. thing is... each time this comes by, a phase, a year, an hour, a minute... a second, our life points into two directions.

or more.

each small different step we take... we go somewhere.

be it good, or bad, i hope you embrace where you landed yourself. I hope you will love your new friends, I hope you will have a helluva time.

srsly, no matter what you get, it is really inconsequential to me, because... at the end of the day, I won't remember you by your score in EOY.

if you worry about your results you will remb what you end up with.

what you leave behind with the teacher is what you were in class, how you behaved, what you did, what you think you did that the teacher did not see, *tsk tsk*. your personality.

so no matter what, ill be happy for you.

the funeral

We were friends. Blaik, I thought I knew you.
Not after I found the stuff you hid in your study drawer.
Blood samples? All labelled with initials?
I tried not to think too much.
You always kept the study locked.
Why not yesterday?

I thought we were closest of friends. We spent our childhood together, had so much fun in the tree house, and no matter how much trouble we got into, we stuck through out. Even after I moved, we were still good. You became a doctor eventually, and I became a writer. We still met up often, I still don't know as much about you as you know about me. You always had your quiet moments, staring into space, as if there was something there.

Why did you leave me in your house alone yesterday?
You were away, and my curiosity got better of me.
Your diary, why was it left open?
Did you want me to find it?
Did you want me to read it?
Did you?

I did not want to find out.
I did not need to know what you really do.
Why now?
Why let me realize you were already broken when we first met?
Why now?
Are you trying to let me know you better?
Why now?
Do I really deserve this shock?
Why now?

I had no choice. I had to stop you.
I'm coming up only to hold you under.

You did not struggle.

And coming up only to show you wrong.

You were smiling, I didn't know why.

And to know you is hard; we wonder...

Why?

To know you all wrong; we warn.

Blaik. I'm sorry.

I'll be fine.

Don't worry, I'll be at your funeral.

Aran

today is origami day.

follow the instructions, and make an awesome cube that can transform into a... rose.

on a sidenote: heres how to make sushi, if you didn't already know. (dont take it too srsly k)

one of my first idols

低沉的中低音.诠释情歌的感觉.

paper 1.

i think this can describe my feelings. or sth liddat.

誰不想

maybe im too fast

marking day

marking day is 8 - 1. what is the significance? shrugs

i havent taken a single day of MC (not even when im sick.) and shouldnt i be rewarded with 2 free days as well if i no longer have anything to mark? nods. then i can go msia again and feel the feeling of freedom. some false sense of freedom is good too, the mind is easily deceived.

well, i hope i finish tomorrow, haven't decided whether to sports, wonder if the PE ppl have any equipment to spare. then thursday i can go skoo to rot and bring my lappie there to game (righttt.... ):

maybe i shouldn't mark so fast then. so thursday still got stuff to do. can chillax abit. woohoo.

on a sidenote: fringe supernatural dexter TBBT HIMYM all have new eps i havent watched. :D

i have never tried marking like this...

but it works in my favor. am loving it.

now i feel like an overworked robot, with a burning CPU.

brainfried. marking damn slowly now.

happiness or results more important?

happiness brings results?

results brings happiness?

i only blame time for making me enter the school midway.

heres sth i like alot. i feel like watching it again. : /

not around

is it true that people cherish stuff only when the stuff is lost or is no longer around?

kthxbai

im leaving on a jetplane, don't know when ill be back again...

make a comeback

a wise man ever said,

"if you can sit through hell and not falter, then nothing, absolutely nothing will stir your further."

that is the start of resilience. an important trait you would love to have. trust me, it will be the start of something good.

2 different videos. same song.

i apologize

for being inadequate.

inapt.

insufficient.

just. not. good. enough.

oh wait. inapt song. jeez.

thoughts

im pretty sure you can do better than this. much better. have some faith.

mark mock

i dunno... i rly donno. sobs.

my fault? *nods

not prepared? not the right time to have mock?

im more worried than disappointed. im... i cant describe.

if you are not good at it i have nothing to say.

your good results in previous semesters do not do you justice.

with your calibre, you know well that YOU CAN MAKE IT.

im not even talking about answering to your parents.

ANSWER TO YOURSELF. can you accept yourself being stuck at this level of mediocrity?

There is no "yes" as an answer. you can do it, then do it. why allow yourself to be like this?

no complaints. no excuses. pull up your socks, and get ready to fight. DO OR DIE. THERES NO TRY.

*of course don't die. tyvm.

credits to:http://www.bostern.com/blog/2009/10/24/inspired/

nao i noe why...

have been losing much sleep. not enough sleep time translate to bad things happening in life. is it an illness? hard to tell.

here are some possibilities:

and it does happen to our canine fren more than us...

haish. isit me? isit me getting narcolepsy? ):
whenever you get a certain heightened feeling, anger, nervousness, or sadness, you immediately fall to sleep.

narcolepsy. sad. cannot feel happy, sad, angry, or even just disturbed, cause either way you'll fall asleep before you know it.

how sad is it to not be able to witness and experience everything in life that you can do nao? can you relate? i doubt so ):

MY RULE OF THUMB: sleep enough (6 - 8 hours) before a major exam. nothing can go wrong.
1) if you remember it, you will remember it.
2) if you havent had enough time to remember it, wake up earlier to revise, not sleep later, the brain doesnt do good with burning midnight oil
3) if you don't remember it, then sleeping late wouldn't help. srsly.

kthxbai. remember. keep calm, and eat tao huey.

its exam seasons again

when i was in NUS, exam seasons always seem bleak. reason: i am always by the computer whereas everyone else is bz mugging. maybe... it isnt my fate to deal with education? is it? but i think its just me and my distractions. i need to find many things to do as my mind is often unoccupied, no matter how much i try to mug. do you feel the same?

why do i lack focus? maybe studying isnt my cup of tea, this isnt to discourage people from studying, but to encourage that you TAHAN through the system, and eventually find something you love to do. my fren did relatively ok for his studies, went to army, worked and saved up to study in la selle. nao he is a fellow in a school for directing. how awesome is that?

http://heshuming.wordpress.com/worksnational-day/

not everyone ends up where they want, but if you hang in there, and wait for delayed gratification, more often than not you will realise it was good to wait. it isnt just a joke if ppl over centuries say "good things come to those who wait".

THEY ARE ALL BACK!

TBBT

SUPERNATURAL

FRINGE

HIMYM

and so much more!!! @_@

random fact of the day:

you can't hold your nose and say "mmmmmmmm" for more than 7 seconds.

the leg feels limp. good luck 了。i wished i spent more time exercising and playing sports. i like em, but i spend too much time on the computer. pew pew pew.

some day... oh some day.

a burnt weekend

and still undone with stuff @_@; the lack of sleep will cause undesirable side effects including:

fluctuations of emotions, fatigue, craziness, lack of tolerance among plenty of others.

http://www.ebaumsworld.com/video/watch/1001126/

this video shows how one loses sleep while a cat disturbs our sleep. many people claim to be nocturnal, meaning they like to stay up at night.

many points can be raised.
1) at night nobody really can care too much, sleep takes precedence.
2) poor cat, like most ppl, was talking to a wall, no response.
3) the cat tried all night to realise it would return to normal in the day. LOLcat
4) disturbs the owner throughout the night, and the owner would only realise if he had the video on.
5) massages owner >:)

hilarious!

oh man, early sunday. morning!
time to get out of home.

TO ARTHUR!

it was a wonderful night, it was some wonderful music, and it sure it great to hear some of my fav stars sing live.

thank you 曹格。

one of the highest falsetto ive ever witnessed live.

the whistle register is also mindblowing.

信 didnt sing this song, but hey OMG you were inspirational. one of the most beautiful high notes among guys.

having heard this song live made me realise  i know any friend who can go to her pitch. lols. OMGGG

thanks for the concert, sis.

it was a mark to note that i need to learn new songs to K, kay?

satisfaction

doesn't exist for some people.
expectations

memes tell you much. this much.

oh yes these gems

thanks for pointing out that this dude here also poops rainbow. this is more like fart though.

puuuuurrrrttt.

this dude does rainbow too (its an awesome t shirt design)

http://instagram.com/p/P3YHtAq25w/ maybe they can adopt this back in the roomboard too

this dude too.

POINT IS. RAINBOW IS AWESOME.
MY CLOTHES ARE ARRANGED IN RAINBOW COLOR TOO.
MY COLORED PENS TOO.

tired enough to do this. srsly.

the little things one know

little does one know that lack of sleep causes brain to function at approximately π times slower. Riggghhhtt.

little does one know that unicorns DO exist. and they poop rainbow, cant be sure how it tastes like though.

little will one find out about the bermuda triangle, people who went there rarely returned. in one piece.

little did we know...

thank you eel.

serious cat

barber of seville

人之多言，亦可畏也

please tell me your meme.

mad rush

all nighter.

this is but a LOLcat facility

thank you for the wonderful days

srsly.

because you need this.

from fiery ashes

smoke will rise.

the burning debris,

the tormented souls.

from the effigies,

monsters will come forth,

and devour us whole.

the world is no longer what it's used to be,

and never will be.

ever.

i deny your disallow.

kitteh is scared.

oh look, my feet, yes, talk to my feet.