There was this man.

There was this man, he was known to be kinda bland;
he was the one where rules bend, and was always waiting for shit to descend.

There is kinda lame, but he was well known before he came,
he was "buaya" with fame, and even more so the same after he came.

Sadly he left after news came through, there was nothing much people could do.
They left him with no choice, he never did have a voice.

End of the day there came a successor, he who dons an ughhhh,
he was as bad if not worse than he who left, always in the toilet combing what he was left to possess.

Posts

they will continue.

this piece of thing here keeps on generating stuff that nobody understands yet there comes a time when relief is required and this place becomes a place to store this intellectual junk. will it ever 升华? i doubt so. i dont put in so much effort into writing things down, or writing at all for that matter.

peaceout.

The series had to end.

I had no motivation to start.

All things must come to an end.

Good.

or

Bad.

The world carries on spinning,
we carry on living;
nobody cares, nobody knows
we carry on living;
someone dies, somebody is born,
we carry on living;
we fail a project, someone else excelled in one,
we carry on living;
we lose a dollar, you gained one...

so what?

Year after year,
effort after effort,
more, less, enough, above average, below par,
all the same.

the result is all the same.

good teachers,
bad teachers,
nice teachers,
angry teachers,
"his"tory teachers,
anyone,
absolutely anyone,
in class,
imparting knowledge,

it makes no difference.

but i try. i still do.

i make sure you step out of my class having a mark from me.
i wont stab you.
i wont brand you.

you choose the way you want me to stay in your heart, for good.

Happy 2013.

This is 2014. Actually April of 2014.

We didn't see this coming.

Did time dilate?

Or otherwise?

emotions, thoughts, all mixed up, all mashed up. the world, faster and faster, nobody turns around to look behind, nobody cares, nobody ever understands another person, anyone else, for a simple reason, they are too busy to do so. why so? slow down your steps, smell the roses, breathe in the haze, breathe out...

change your life, change how you see the world, change the way your eyes stereotype, it can be beneficial. you do not have to judge. you never had to. people who want to, will. you do not have to follow. never.

Dear friend, #14

Dear friend,

I used to revel in being the best.
winning the rest.
making a mess.
mildly obsessed.

I'd love to shine. I love to shine. Shining lightly. Shining brightly.

Then I realised, I like developing people more. I like to watch people grow into better people. I already lost my chance to become a better JC kid. I was just mediocre. I was lucky. I was lucky to be smart. I was lucky to be persistent enough to be good at math. I was... good enough.

I want people to be better, best, awesome. MEGAWESOME.

Sometimes life doesn't allow it to happen,
sometimes life stops it from happening,
sometimes life try to give you difficulties.

So what? Why can't you just tell life to be better? Why can't you make it better? For your own sake? What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I firmly believe so.

sometimes, it is your choice that makes it good,
sometimes, it is your mentor that helps to point you in the right way,
sometimes, it is your teacher that moulds you to be someone greater,
sometimes, it is fate.

I have kinda found my style, and I kinda like it. I will stick to it, and I will revel in it. For a good long while.

Just found this:

Be soft.
Do not let the world make you hard.
Do not let pain make you hate.
Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.
Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree,
you still believe it to be a beautiful place.
- Iain S. Thomas

Take care my friend, we have only so much left.

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #13

Dear friend,

it is September already. Friday the 13th. Is this the cause for this sudden emotion? Term 4 starts in a few days' time, and I feel prepared to go into class to help people. The only problem I have is that I have this uncontrollable urge to scold people. No idea where it spans from but it is killing me. Is being lenient the key to making a class hard to control? Must discipline always involve scolding?

I know, I know, I had my fair share of getting nagged by my mum, but I really seldom appreciated it. Is nagging a part of growing up? Is constant reminders part of how people learn how to listen to instructions? I really don't know. I don't advocate scolding or nagging, but this seems like a bad idea.

"This cannot control the class!", or even "This doesn't care about us one, never scold us when we do wrong things!". Like one of my counsellor friends said, kids, no matter good or bad natured, just want some form of achievement. Getting scolded by is one of them, making angry is another one of them. My lack of desire to participate always seems to cause some form of negative impact.

This journey into education is a long and arduous one I must agree, and there is so much more I need to find out before I can actually become someone who is competent at the art of teaching.

I am about a year and a bit more into this field, and I must say I learn a lot on a daily basis, not to mention the wonderful people I get to see everyday. Thing is, most of them don't realise it and feel like "Sigh, I am not important." or "Nobody really cares." Psychologists are right about this, kids are more concerned about their friends than other people in their lives, especially during adolescent years. I guess this is a phase I must learn to deal with cause I really don't remember my lower secondary days being so complex. I have always been a simpleton and living life simple is really the key to achieving the complex but how many people can actually understand this statement?

Friend, are you still there waiting? Listening? I am unsure, but hey, I have faith in you. Be here, I will still look forward to talking to you. Exams are coming soon, the time to stop talking will come again. Cheers!

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #12

Dear friend,

1 month. and i have been counting down. what would you do if you were in my position? with people drifting in and out of your life my friend? i guess i am kinda the one who comes in, leaves a print/or not, and then leaves. do you miss me? would you?

do you think i am a bad friend? always perpetually not there? i used to drift about, wanting to go join in with everyone, partially lonely, partially confused about the social scene, then i realised, most important thing was to make sure i dont overwork the poor mind.

it is common people leave and come into your life, the most important thing is also to learn how to adapt. simple reason, my problem is that i do not adapt fast enough, and also i do not feel that that is a problem.

oh wells, what to do, i am pretty anti-social or rather i should say, apathetic about social needs. i do origami most of the time, stay on the computer most of the time, dont see the need to interact most of the time T^T...

sigh oh sigh, i cant wait for wednesday, time to fly to japan. i am on a origami pilgrimage. woohoo. hope to see you soon dear friend, ciao!

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #11

Dear friend,

it has been long.
idk what has been happening.
i dislike the sleep/wake/work cycle,
yet i live it like it is my life everyday.

blarts aside,
i have an addiction.
an addiction on addictions.
i do many things on a daily basis now,
partly due to... the silent stress.
and i keep telling myself that.
nice excuse to stop thinking so much.

first thing i want to change,
my dear friend,
is to sleep earlier.
people in my school get to sleep at 9.
i mean... why do i then sleep at 1?
it doesnt make any sense.

i ever told myself,
if i kept sleeping late,
one fine day i will just...
collapse like this.

so on a day like this,
week 7 thursday,
when exams are almost done...

i stay resolute to sleep earlier.

like now.

thanks for listening,
dear friend i hope you are coping well.

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #10

Dear friend,

Hi! it has been a month :D

It is the March holidays now and it is almost Wednesday already. Trust me, I am enjoying every moment of it... and some good news...

1. I am going to Hong Kong tomorrow, which is happening in 6 hours time...
2. I have some ideas, i wish to add in some stuff to the blog... but it will be a separate blog...
3. Life IS GOOD!!!
4. I love origami and the module is starting soon!

some bad news...

1. work much not done... lol... but as the saying goes... work can never be finished, so prioritize life before work! We all know that when we die... we don't need to work right? LOL
2. I am afraid things may turn for the worse if I do something they don't like... again. lol.
3. Life is so good I am forgetting to do reflection much. oh wells!
4. I haven't prepared much for the module... it was meant to be a PP (passion pursuit) but due to some secret reason... they turned it into a math module forcing me to add in concepts inside! this is so ridiculous I hope whoever did it catch fire and turn into ash.

March holidays will fly past fast, and soon it will be SA1. stress levels build up in everyone, including me... but somehow my body is rather retarded to react... that is why. SIGH PI. I always wondered if I am already dead inside, my friend. I mean... unfeeling kind of dead yah?

Friend, if you are seeing this, and you are struggling through life and her challenges... please look forward, there's always June, September and December yah? I mean... short term wise... saturday and sunday? LOL :D

Stay chirpy, and stay crazy, the best people are! (:

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #9

Dear friend,

HELLO. It's been awhile. ITS BEEN RAINING. Like everyday. Can? Let me provide you with some structure in this post.

1. Imma say sth abt skoo stuff
2. Imma talk about my own stuff
3. Imma talk about random stuff
4. Imma crap abit about idkwts

School.
It's like week 7 soon.
CA1 is around the corner, not a bowl of prunes.
Many are panicking, while my sec1s are IP and they have so much freedom and room.

CA1, I feel, is relatively manageable and if you can get A, GET IT, why waste that 10 - 15%? Unless you have no choice, score it; if you need help, ask for it; if some things aren't going right somewhere in life, tell somebody you can trust. Don't fall into oblivion. We all need a little support sometimes.

Other than the academics, some people are making life hard, can't say who, don't wish to make it known, and don't think it is fair to some good _ who would be forced to make decisions they don't wish to... There are also so many other things going on that need to be solved, so many years, and you mean nobody said anything? I really wonder who sweeps all that dust under the rug. Such a big rug, so much dust, I am allergic to dust. That wasn't a lie though. I AM ALLERGIC TO DUST. *cough cough*

Other than having to commit to _ for no reasons, why can't those _ just pack up and go? My friend do you see my view point? Would you stand with me? Would you be able to? Have you enough punch to do so? *punch punch*

It really doesn't need a _ to tell the _ that "put your kids' interests right in front" and you wouldn't go wrong right? Seriously, why did you become _ in the first place?

If you had other secret agenda in mind when you joined the service. I REALLY HOPE YOU QUIT. CAUSE IT IS KIDS AND THEIR LIVES WE ARE TALKING ABOUT HERE. ONE YEAR IS 365 DAYS AND 8760 HOURS AND 525600 MINUTES AND 31536000 SECONDS. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? STOP WASTING YOUR OWN TIME AND THEIRS!
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I rerealised I need to sleep early. Late nights -> lack of exercise -> lack of endorphins -> lack of energy and motivation and -> inertia to work -> vicious cycle to sleep late >:

If this were to go on, I would then break down into a million pieces yah? I hope you can help me out here my friend. Otherwise life has been good with the time I have on my hands, and the time I have to go walk around in Punggol and the other places I would soon go to HAHA.

I like origami, and the only reason why I give some of them away is because I have no space at home. Oh so sad. Frankly speaking, each piece of those papers costs like at least around a dollar, and the ones I am going to make, [the papers costs 16USD each], feels so broke LOL, oh wells you buy paper to make origami... right? I mean... I. Not you. LOL. I can feel this connection, that will bring origami deep into my life... 10 - 20 years down the road, and hopefully I can spearhead something in the far future. Other than that, I have no idea where my life will go in 3 years. 5 years. 7 years. I am unsettled, especially this year. For some reason.

BUT HEY as i listen to OneRepublic's Good Life, I kinda think that I am having a good life oh so so SUCH INDULGENCE >: Hope you are having a good one my friend!
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Something random. I am running out of time. and money. I AM RUNNING OUT OF EVERYTHING ARGH!!! ok the end LOL.
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I wanna watch movies, so I watch them while marking, and guess what, my computer is directly opposite the  TV. Thanks lor. Then TV on. Then movie on. Then I listen to what? IDK MAN. SO NOISY. URGH. I LIKE SILENCE LIKE THAT. Sometimes. Oh man my arms are cramping up. Stupid strained forearms. My friend can you like send me something to help relieve that? Cause I don't konw ohw to hlep msyefl.

Hope to tell you more soon. And yes HAPPY 人日。I didnt lao yusheng today though. Oh wells. HAPPY CATURDAY! And may your Sunday be schmacking too!

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #8

Dear friend,

Can you believe it? Next week is week 4 already. What happened in between? I don't remember man. I have lost some discipline really. This is a time for some crazy thang and I went walking. I got lost and wound up at Seletar. Almost had to walk on the expressway. Found back some endurance, some stamina, and most of all, found back some sanity.

With whatever was going on and whatever will be coming soon, I really hope that I will improve. I fear that my incompetency will drag some of them down, and then there are some. Inferiority may/will set in and then end up I may just quit. Maybe. I don't know. Experiences mould people. If it moulds me, I hope it moulds you too. Dear friend, do you know what I am talking about? I am not easily beaten and I really hope I can do better but when it comes to other peoples' lives... I don't know, the responsibility is so much bigger.

I guess that is enough ranting for now, will come back soon with some pictures of CNY food HURHURHUR.

新年快樂！My dear friend!

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #7

Dear friend,

Have a great new year. It has been rough (ok not), it has been tough (ok you are stronger) and well, its all coming to an end. 2013 will come (SGT +8) in approximately half an hour's time, and guess what, I am still panicking as much as I was last year. Ok not really, LOL. The past weeks of holidays has been rather fun, although I really would prefer to spend more time being constructive... and well well well.

School is starting real soon. 2nd of January. LOL. Am I excited? Excited? You kidding me? I need to prepare stuff to teach already, even though it is known to be week 0, i.e. no need to teach yet. I will be teaching a few sec1 and a few sec2 class(es) and yea I hope I am better than I was this year.

No countdown this year, but all ready to prepare for bed, ah yes, prepare for bed. argh. old is catching up. I actually look forward to sleeping. Pig me. Pygmy. /_\

Dear friend once again please do take care of yourself, we need to be better version of ourselves in 2013, and lets get ready.

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #6

Dear friend,

Hi friend! I have been starting to re-pick up life as December arrived. As I spoke to my secondary school teacher, she told me it would be a challenge to adjust to the halting of momentum when holidays arrive, it is really up to me to decide wisely how my time should be spent. I kinda dislike the idea of work like mad, then rest like mad, why can't we just live slow, or maybe fast, but not too fast, so we can always catch our breathe daily? This way we can last long enough and we probably would not see so many zombies around in school yeah? Would you rather have a year of work and rest concurrently or approximately 3 months of rest non-stop and 9 months of deadly work non-stop?

It makes no sense right? Even with that 3 months of rest many people idle their time away, while some continue to work their ass off for the year to come, which makes less sense than no sense, go figure. Now if we can only re-look at how our years of evolution has come to be, we may be able to shed some light on these ridiculous traditions we call 'structure'. I agree structure is essential, but we must also see that breaking structure is essential too ya'know!

I have started to do some work, albeit slowly. Some work from next year, some lagging dragging work, mostly school work. I really have no more stuff I really really have to clear from my personal life you see. So nowadays at least I still get to game, like... 10 hours a day at least. Call me mad but hey gamer for life! 1337

Orcs Must Die 2 is what's constantly bugging my mind now, its still Tower Defence  but with a tinge of FPS, and with such dark humour  it is certainly my kind of game lol. Otherwise I would be folding origami, like what else seriously. I just need so much more structured procrastination to help me do more. Read the following:

How to procrastinate like a pro

Ig Nobel Award

Yes both are very relevant, and yes you have not heard wrong, its Ig Nobel award, an award given to people who come up with brilliant ideas that do not fall under the Nobel Prize category, such as... procrastination. Wonderful, right? People need to think more, think more out of the box, and think more for the benefit of the masses. Call that altruism or anything you like, but I prefer to know it as the goodness of mankind. No matter how much I have trust issues with my own species, I choose to hold on to my belief that we can be as good as we want to be, and as cliché as it sounds, with goodness comes evil. So the best of goodness we can be would consequently reflect that the worst of evil we can also be XD.

I certainly hope you have been good my friend, because otherwise Santa would be bringing you some pretty nice night mares to visit you! (oh wrong character, LOL)

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #5

Dear friend,

I haven't been doing good with my time. I am striving for something more constructive; I have been trying hard to declutter, I have been trying to "turn over a better leaf". I am not entirely 'chui' but what I really want is to be something better. Physically, I am trying to turn into something I always wanted to become, mentally, I am having a hard time controlling (I am not crazy), I just have excessive raw power giving me a lot of 天馬行空。

So as far as possible, when this week ends, I will no longer have much travelling and going out to do, i.e. physical social activities HAHA. I am not exactly entirely anti-social but I am in actual fact pretty much an introvert.

http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/how-to-deal-with-introverts

http://9gag.com/gag/2387816

http://mehallo.com/B/IntrovertThing2.png

http://www.salespodder.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/04/susan-cain-introvert-extrovert-400x696.jpg

And seriously speaking, I do value my space more than I value interaction. If I do not have a very fruitful interaction with you I rather keep quiet and observe. That way I pick up more than I do when I try to make small talk, hence the lack of small talk.

I perceive time differently, every second feels long to me.

I perceive people differently, almost every other stranger I see is... 不自動。woops.

I try my best to do my best in everything, simply because... I hate problems.

Frankly speaking, problems are essential in mathematics, I grew up hating them possibly. BECAUSE I HATE THEM, I solve them really fast. HAHAHAHA. yes. That happened. And eventually I started loving mathematics because I want to solve them as fast as I can. I learnt more about life and stuff along the way. It is difficult to impart that to students nowadays simply because... they do not think that math has anything to do with life. In actual fact, it has. Just that time does not allow us to explore so. Simply put, given 3 hours a week, the most I can teach you is how to ace your school exams. Something must be rethought, and we must all relearn. Problem solving will tide us through a major part of our lives, and I am having an easy life (relatively) because most of the problems that come to me 兵來將擋，水來土掩。Unlike some others who panic and spend much time on thinking about the solutions, mine come to me much easily. This makes it... much easier for me.

Whew, that is quite some ranting. Hope it didn't scare the ________ out of you. Life brings us much nonsense and sense along the way and what we really need to do is to overlook and focus on some. I still am trying to learn how to focus on what I really am going to do in the next 10 - 15 years so that I can make myself a pro at it. Slowly give stuff up so that I can think deeply instead of in the other way. I do not need to pick up more pastimes and interests already. LOL.

I hope you have been doing well, its 2 days to December, fast ain't it? Bonus is coming in, and I certainly hope that it will fund my trips :p Maybe I'll get to see you when I go there? I sure hope so.

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #4

Dear friend,

it has been quite a while! Really quite sometime since I last came back here. Almost a fortnight you see. Have you been fine in this madness November is bringing us? I was thinking about posting about my past but it really didn't seem useful. At least not to the extent I actually went about posting it.

Amidst the madness, there is still work to be done, and hey, I really am getting way too slack for my own good. I am not sure if it is due to the constant 2am nights I am having, or it is just fatigue from non - existent work. This burning sensation is kinda great, given that it numbs at times. not that it IS good or anything like that.

The main point of today, I actually bought something I was eyeing since 2 years ago. Well, this time round, with a little future cash, and more intense discipline, it went through my mind, and seriously, this and the coming month are really pure training for my mind. I really hope this financial roller coaster would stop appearing anyhow in the future urgh.

Pardon my nonsense my friend, for I would want to sleep early today. Tomorrow is no kidding frankly speaking. And I would actually like to do some work at school tomorrow. So... here's hoping a good december soon to come, and if I can, Ill be back!

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #3

Dear friend,

sorry for the absence... I was rather... off recently. been doing too much... physical activities i must say. I have been starting long distance training, running and then cycling. I really should get a bicycle I guess? So that I can ride to school next year...

I feel that it is rather therapeutic to go running long distance and cycling because it allows the brain to go on hibernation mode. The only problem that follows is that the body feels the fatigue I guess. These days have been rather eventless given that there's no school and all there is is invigilation and nothing else.

How have you been? Have you been really busy? Or are you like me... free? Are you free spirited? Do you get high at the smell of adventure? Do you like literature? The arts? Culture? Science? Math? Are you happy with your life now? Is the coming month good?

I can't wait to go for holidays, but I can't seem to find people to go Tioman. I just want to spend some time going over there to stay, laze around and snorkel. It is something I really miss. Can I find someone to go eventually? Pretty please?

It's time to already to make a move, I still have tonnes of work to complete haha, oh gosh. Take care, my friend, and see you soon, hopefully overseas (:

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #2

Dear friend,

Sorry I couldn't keep up with the daily post promise. hope all's well with you. life has been messy, with invigilations in and out, not every day, yet some days you have to return to school and many a times you are left thinking what is it I have tomorrow.

this mess has caused me quite a big problem. One. An Aries needs clear focus. And now there isn't. no student and no target and no nothing. there is this reason why people game during holidays, they feel lost. do I feel lost? YOU BET. But somehow there's still uberly many things to do that I am unable to focus on playing games, saddening ain't it? And simply because of this, I chose to leave these 煩事 at home and go for runs/walks/jogs whatever. I like the water. Mum and dad ever said before that my name was picked by some Name Meister and the amount of 木 in my name has caused me to love water a lot. I like the seas, I like rain, I like waterfalls, I love the sound of water, I love to drink water, I basically need water. I actually completed 16km, first ever in my life. I am proud of myself, aren't you my friend? After that one day the recuperation took longer than expected but the effects were great! I think stamina increased by quite a bit. I think I really should have put in more effort into fitness during army. Sorry to have disappointed you then : /

Coming back to the point, while all these are going on, life still rolls, the time still moves, water still flows and yes... the TO-DO list piles up. I just realised I have stuff I owe all the way from September, and yea I really shouldn't make it sound like it was that long ago. Its just about 2 mths. HAHA. and actually in about 2 months school's going to begin and I will really scare the shit out of myself if I end up teaching sec 4s. D: The bulls.

Ah wells, I can't talk longer dear friend, I need to complete the blue whale to bring to school tomorrow to show SH IP and I haven't even started! I assume it to be done by 1234am though. Life's all well dear friend, I hope it is the same for you too!

xoxo,

mo

Dear friend, #1

Dear friend,

I changed the way this blog works because I was deeply affected by "The Perks of Being a Wallflower", the concepts in the show were really intriguing, and while the show was deemed to be a "teen drama" (damn im old), I am still really smashed in the face while watching it.

I should hope to keep the notes to you as a daily thing but sometimes you know, there's nothing to say and I really don't want to write about how almost knocked into a wall looking at a mural, ya know whadyam sayyin?

I won't have any spoilers here so I wouldn't talk about the movie details, but hey I just wanna say it kinda lifted my spirits way beyond the skies. Its been sometime since I last felt this way, I don't know when was the last, was it Juno? I have been watching movies since I was 14? 15? or was it 16? I don't remember, as far as I could remember, it was an effection from Mr Sunny (I do not know how his name is spelt). He was my tuition teacher back when I was having English tuition. I hated english tuition. compre, compo, compre, compo and I was dozing off half the time. I probably got that habit in U back those days. He was an interesting fella, had tonnes of people he could talk to, and shared with us how being non-judgemental was the right thing to do. Bengs talk to him because they know they could communicate with him. How many people actually can?

He also shared with us how he doesnt teach on thursdays, and its movie marathon for him. From the noon show till night, it would be his movie day and amazingly, it sunk into me as well. I guess somethings better not be learnt up : /. it really costs a bomb to watch so many movies. really. I learnt most of the thinking stuff from movies, I learnt tonnes of things from everywhere, anywhere. I learnt from you, my friend, too. I learnt from them, and I learnt from the mentors too. Some of them teach negatively, I rant a lot about them, and its a fact but I wasn't like that before. But well no excuses, all these can and WILL be prevented. Knowing how to swear and swearing are two different things.

Keeping these bad emotions to myself could/would/should potentially help them too, but I really don't know. Would you be so kind as to tell me if I should do that? Remember the time when 出口成章 meant 出口成髒？hahaha, those were the days. We had lots of fun didn't we?

I shall share with you more on Life Rules next time, guess what, tomorrow its another warzone day, and well, I need to sleep more or else I will fall asleep later.

xoxo,

mo

Thanks to Perks of Being a Wallflower

There is change here. The style is the one used by the Charlie. and well i like Patrick much.

Sam is so hawt! and here's it:

randomness

while walking about in punggol, a thought sprung up. what is randomness?

we observe randomness. but are we able to repeat randomness using our own abilities?

we say scissors paper stone is random, no special way of winning, but there is. there is a science behind it.

now what EXACTLY IS randomness?

like hold a pen on its back and its nib on the table. release. you WOULD NOT KNOW where its going to fall towards.

now this IS randomness. and after much research...

ITS A WHOLE PART OF PHYSICS KNOWN AS FALLING PEN PHYSICS lol.

so frankly speaking. i believe randomness is quantum. what we have... what we do... is known to be pseudorandom. basically fake randomness.

so random. this post is so random. yet controlled in some sense.

we are all contradictions in some way.

see. random. but not that random.

last week in school

i have no idea if i can do it. i dont have the time. so... lol. PM me if you actually want sth.

here's a video of origami at the very least. hope its good enough :p

and erm... if there's disappointment... it... kinda gets better in time.

ill try my best, but hey like i said, if you r really interested... lol. happy holidays.